New Starts

I know I say this at the end of every year, but this time it's different.

And I know I say that every times as well, but this time, it really is!

LOL!

I know I said I was going to start blogging again a couple of months ago...but as usual, something happened that spun everything on its head AGAIN, and I haven't been able to talk about it.

But finally, FINALLY, I can slowly feel myself truly healing, getting stronger, getting fitter, and my eyes open up more and more each day. 

It hasn't been easy...hell, nooooooo it hasn't, BUT my bs radar is on full alert, and I have decided to stop second guessing my gut.

Your gut feeling is always right. That's something that has been proven to me in the past. Other people try to pass it off as paranoia or insecurity when confronted with it, but the actual fact is...that gut feeling will nearly always turn out to be right.

And as the year is coming to a close, my biggest hope for next year is simple.

NO. MORE. DRAMA.

I'm biting the bullet and making some big, big changes next year. No more excuses, no more procrastinating - it's time to do stuff for ME. This time last year, I was not expecting to be here. I was making decisions based on someone else's plans (even though I knew deep down that was the wrong thing to do), and it was that decision which held me back from doing a whole load of stuff I wanted to do.

I am not going to make the same mistakes again. I learnt my lesson the hard way and it came with an incredible amount of heartache and pain, that took a long time to let go. And every time I managed to take those baby steps forward, something happened and I was right back where I started.

I don't want to be always looking for the worst in people, but when people behave the way that they do, it's hard not to. And that's a terrible quality to have. I know I'm guarded, but in time, I'm sure I will let it down again. 

In the meantime, 2016 is going to be an incredible year of travel. And you know that nothing makes me happier than that. 

On a completely different note, I am having the biggest wardrobe clearout ever. I have so many clothes that I bought years ago that still have the damn label on! And no matter how gorgeous I think they are, if I haven't worn them in the last 2 years, it's very unlikely I'm going to! So I'm taking them back to the UK and taking them to charity. 

Loving the extra wardrobe space I have right now! Perfect timing - Boxing Day sales are beckoning!

xoxo