Yawn!

Ufffff.

This being frugal lark is getting seriously boring.

I haven't done anything this weekend except go to the gym.

Seriously - apart from that and taking the rubbish out today, I haven't left the house. I've stayed in, done laundry and watched copious amounts of TV, spent hours looking at flights and hotels, sorting through emails and deleting pictures.

I guess it has been productive, but after spending months going out all weekend, it feels weird. Although my wallet is definitely thanking me for it. I was spending a fortune on lunches and dinners and drinks - now money is only going on commuting and food from the supermarket. That used to be expensive too, but now that I've become a smarter shopping, I've finding a lot of ways to save cash there, too!

My credit card beating, however, has continued. 

And I have just booked another flight.

Off to the States next month!

LOL - I'm so used to shoving everything on a debit card, that I sometimes forget that all these flights and hotels still need to be paid for! I'm sitting here thinking that all I need to do now is save for spending money, but actually, I need to pay for the whole trip! LOL! 

Good thing I am being so frugal then!

Definitely going to be working my arse off for the next 6 months, that's for sure. If anyone needs a business English tutor, let me know!!!! HAHA!

On a completely different note, how are you supposed to get rid of that flabby bit at the bottom of a six pack?! The top part of my abs are getting pretty defined and then it's just like this round gut. My friend told me I would have to start eating better to get rid of it....

....so I guess it's staying! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!

xoxo

Confusion

Arrrgggghhhhhhh!!!!

It is so frustrating that when you have a situation straightened out, it takes one thing to turn everything on its head again.

And to say that I have been left feeling somewhat confused is an understatement.

OK, I guess confused is the wrong word. No, no - actually confused is definitely the right word.

Confused. Anxious. Nervous. Fearful. Hopeful. Happy. Relieved.

LOL! I sound like a nutter! 

It's just been a bit of an insane 3 weeks. But I think things just finally might be falling into place, and I'm starting to figure things out.

Someone told me that you have to stop holding onto fear and just let go. Let it happen. But stay strong, keep your guard up and protect yourself.

How are you supposed to do all of that at the same time?!

The next 6 months - 1 year are going to be everything. Everything.

I can't explain why in detail yet, but it's all super exciting!

My trip to Africa is taking its beautiful shape, and I am so effing pumped for it! It has broken the bank, but you should never apologise for doing something on your bucket list. And seeing an African sunset?! It's going to be so effing special, I can barely contain my excitement! And to be able to share it with someone who has been one of my rocks over the last year will make it even more special, and amazing, and exciting, and fun!

I've also just booked my flight to....

....the M**********N' BAHAMAS!!!!

Woop woop woop!

I can't even begin to explain how excited I am for that either! It's just going to be insane. And I'm excited to catch up with my girl in LA who will be meeting me there as well! Yay! 

It's going to be an epic start to the new year! Next year HAS to be my year! Because I want a better one that this one. And a better one than last year. 

I deserve it.

And I'm going to make it happen.

xoxo

Short Lived!

Lesson learnt!

Be very, very careful who you decide to let into your life!

It's incredible how some people can seem so genuine...only for you to find out that they are pathological liars! 

Why some people feel the need to lie about...well...everything, is beyond me!

Why bother? Is your real life that dull that you have nothing else to do except try and make yourself look better by belittling someone else?

When I saw this kind of behaviour in the two women I recently let into my life, it sent the alarm bells ringing. So I decided to do a little investigating of my own, and it turns out that my gut feeling was right.

Lies. So many lies.

And then it also opened my eyes, that when you have a gut feeling about something or someone, you really should listen to it. I was led to believe a load of crap, and through listening to my own gut feeling, I was also shown a lot of home truths. I found out reasons for things that I hadn't been able to understand before. I found out that I had gotten a particular situation completely wrong. 

When I realised the latter point, I decided to hear the story out. I'm not a spiteful person - if someone wants to apologise for wrongdoings and offer and explanation as to why those wrongdoings happened, I will hear them out.

And I'm glad I did. Harbouring negative feelings is exhausting, and I hadn't realised that I was still harbouring so much resentment towards someone. Now that I have heard what I believe to be the truth, that resentment is slowly dissolving, and I can look back and smile. 

Last month was crazy, honestly! Some people can be so petty and spiteful. The extent to which some people go to try and get answers...or to do whatever it is they were trying to do...is crazy! I found myself getting dragged into something that was absolutely nothing to do with me, and although I tried to stay out of it, it seemed to happen anyway. 

Curiosity has always been a weak point of mine!

I'm not going to lie, though, although I did get dragged into a very messy situation, something good has come out of it! 

Finding the light at the end of the tunnel.

And feeling happy.

xoxo