Just For You

I've been up to Saitama two weekends in a row now to celebrate my girls' birthdays.

And after a Saturday at work, that is a quite an accomplishment!!

I had a great time last night - great resturant, great company...it just sucks that I always have to get the last train back. I barely made it last night and missed the last connecting train leaving me stranded right in the middle of where I had come from and my house. I ended up getting a cab back to my place all the way from Akabane...a luxury which I really can't afford right now!! Not when I have to pay for this holiday on Monday!

*sigh*

I did debate going back on myself and joining my friends but I have so much to do today, I knew it would be a bad idea. Looks like I'm gonna be having a very quiet March! LOL, that's what I said about February!

On a plus note, the reservations have been made. I am officially hitting up Malaysia and Singapore in April.

And I CAN'T EFFING WAIT!!!

I am gonna be hardcore hitting the gym and trying to eat better so that my bikini body is seriously on point!!!

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You know what all the pictures you can see on this page have in common?

I am totally tanned in all of them.

=)

And not long before I am again!

I hate being this white - I look ill! How great do you feel when you have a serious tan?!

I LOVE it!!

Another couple of months to go!!!

Yay!!

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Yay Yay Yay!!!

So many gorgeous islands...so little time.

Malaysia is going to be incredible. The problem is gonna be choosing which islands NOT to go to! They all look like paradise but are all over the place!!

Argh!!

I am seriously pumped for Singapore as well. I swear I am going to eat my way through that place. LOL!!

April seems so far away. I've pretty much had enough of teaching kids and I think I'm gonna start looking for another job teaching just adults. I keep telling myself to stick it out till the end of my contract in November so that I get my completion bonus, but to be honest, I'm not getting paid enough to put up with the amount of grief that gets dished out at me until then. All of this just isn't worth it.

Plus, the restrictions on when you can take time off are absolutely killing me...so I'm going over everyone's head and doing it my way anyway. I mean, seriously, you really can't tell people that they can't use all their holiday by a certain time IN CASE they get sick later on in the year. Screw that.

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Worldwide Friends

I LOVE the fact that my friends live all over the world.

But the thing that also sucks about that is trying to actually meet up with them.

This summer when I finally make it to the States, I have so many people to see, it's gonna be crazy. But I'm also disappointed because there's a girl that I haven't seen for about 4-5 years who lives in Boston...but when I get over there, she's gonna be in London. This has happened 3 or 4 times before when I tried to see her. When I went home last August, she had left London in June, so I missed her. And when I went back the first Christmas I was here, I think I missed her by literally a matter of weeks.

Such a pain in the arse! I think my closest call was when I tried to meet my girl I went to uni with in Vietnam...and I missed her by ONE DAY!!!

It's so awesome though - talking to friends and arranging to meet in different countries. It might not happen when I want it to but it will happen eventually! And to those who have made the effort to meet me in other countries - THANK YOU!!

For my American friends, I will be in the states for 2 weeks from the end of June. Since it's such a short time, I can only make it to New York and LA so please come and see me!!

For my Aussie friends, I will be making it over there for 13 days (maybe more) from 21st December!! No definite plan at the moment but let me know where you are!!

I can't wait to see you all!

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YUK YUK YUKKKKKK!!!!

I wish yesterday never happened.

I'm not exaggerating when I say that what happened yesterday is the most traumatising thing that I have experienced during my three year teaching experience in Japan.

Saturday is always a really tough day - the naughtiest kids come out in full force and try to test my limits. Unfortunately for them I have worked out their little tricks so they can't fool me anymore, get bored and actually behave.

All but one.

This kis is actually the devil's child. His parents are terrible - I'm not gonna get too much into that, but I have never seen so much neglect and 'I don't give a shit' attitude in a parent before. They use the eikawa as a babysitting service and don't really care if this kid learns English or not. Which he won't because he is a complete dumbass. I should lay off him because he is only 3, but he seems to have absolutely no idea of what kind of behaviour is acceptable...and ultimately, that IS the parents' fault.

But not even I was prepared for what I saw yesterday. As usual he was throwing a hissy fit for absolutely no reason other than the fact I was ignoring his attention seeking antics. He decided to sit in the corner (which is where I would've made him sit anyway) and was just bitching. After a while he started to slowing turn around.....and then to my horror I saw that he had pulled his pants down and was playing with himself!!!! And he was hard!!!! I was so horrified/disgusted/shocked that automatically I shouted at him to stop, whcih caused all the other kids in the class (including 3 little girls) to turn around...and they all saw. ALL OF THEM. He put it away but then turned to the wall and got it out again. I didn't actually realised until another kid told me what he was doing. I was really alarmed because of all the kids in the class....they would blatantly leave the classroom and then tell their mums what had happened, so I had no choice but to drag him (with it still sticking up in the air) out of the classroom.

It's only a 40 minute class and I feel so sorry for the other kids because this one little shit is always disruptive that I can never actually finish whatever I had planned. And sure enough, as soon as the class finished, one little boy ran straight to his mum and told him what happened. The look on her face said it all. The shittiest bit is when I spoke to the devil child's mum, all she said was 'I understand' and then walked off! No apology to me, no apology to the other parents - nothing! Unbelievable! I was so traumatised by the whole thing I couldn't eat my lunch because I thought I was going to throw up. Then we got a phone call later from that mum, saying that she might quit because I hate her son. I can't believe she's trying to put it on me! All the other parents are longing for the day he quits and even though I do hate him, what he did in the classroom is completely unacceptable behaviour. I have to protect the other kids in the class - especially the girls. She seems to be missing the fact that her son behaves completely inappropriately and needs discipline. She complains that I am always shouting at him, but that's because he's ALWAYS doing something wrong - from ripping things off the wall, to hitting other kids to doing what he did yesterday.

I am so shit with situations like this. It's the reason why if I do decide to have children, it HAS to be a girl. I couldn't raise a boy because dealing with issues like that absolutely grosses me out. But short of genetic modifcation, what can you do to guarantee that you get a girl?

YUK YUK YUK!!!

That mum needs to be shot.

So traumatised - I'm scared that image is gonna be etched in my mind forever!!!

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*Big Arse Grin*

I LIVE for holidays. Not just for holidays, for TRAVEL.

I'm reading all about Malaysia during my commute to and from work and I can barely keep the grin off my face. Even the students that test my patience the most can't wipe it off my face. Well...actually they can, but it makes me look forward to going there even more.

Argh! Sometimes I really wish I was still a JET so I could have all that nenkyuu. So many rules and restrictions at my company that it really limits what you can actually do when you do go abroad. On the one hand, you want to see as much as possible, but on the other, you want to make sure that you are not just rushing from place to place that you don't actually take the time to appreciate where you are. Some tough decisions ahead!

On a completely different note, what the hell is up with this snow? Enough already! Although I guess it's pretty normal for February...but you all know how much I absolutely detest the cold. The only good thing about winter is the fashion. I would rather be sweating my arse off...although I won't be saying that when summer in Tokyo comes around and I won't have a beach to escape to!

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Lonely Planet

I got my delivery of Lonely Planets from amazon.jp yesterday.

Lonely Planet Malaysia/Singapore/Brunei, Australia and New Zealand.

I am so excited. I absolutely LOVE planning trips. Reading the guidebooks and then checking out pictures of all the different places online. Apart from my trip back to London in August, it will be my first holiday abroad since I went to Indonesia last Golden Week. And it's always great to have a holiday to look forward to - it feels like such a long time since I did any travelling that I'm really excited to be starting again....even if it means sacrificing an exciting social life in March. Travelling wins EVERY TIME.

LOL - I have enough problems trying to study on the train at the moment but now it looks like I'm gonna be reading guide books instead of kanji cards! Oh well!

And what the hell is with all this snow?! Another reason why I'm excited to hit the beaches.

Yay!!

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*Whoops*

And there I was banging on about how I wasn't going to skip on another day at the gym.

What did I do this morning? Doh!

I had the shittiest night's sleep ever last night and when my alarm went off at 8.30 this morning, I was just way too tired to make it to the gym for such an early aqua class.

I got jolted awake by an earthquake in the early hours of the morning - it only lasted a split second but then I just couldn't get back to sleep afterwards. Then some dick on a motorbike was just driving up and down my road at like 5am or something stupid...it was so loud and annoying and I just couldn't get back to sleep. I think I finally fell asleep at about 9am...only to wake up and hour later to get ready for work.

And I'm STILL feeling tired. I'm trying to tell myself that I'm gonna try and hit the sack at 11.30pm every day but you know that that's just not gonna happen. I get in way to late to go to bed that early and I don't get enough time to do the things I wanna do as it is - never mind taking even more of that time away by going to bed early.

Definitely not the way to start a day of 6 back to back intense children's classes. Gonna be knackered at the end of this one.

*sigh*

I'll find the balance eventually.

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Forwards, Not Backwards

OMG!!

So yesterday I was talking to a friend about a situation which we have both gone through during the last 18 months or so.

It was crazy because he pointed out some things which really made me put stuff into perspective. And what came after that? Panic. And after the panic? Tears.

It was so WEIRD! Like, you can think that your totally over something and then all it takes is for someone to put a different spin on things and then you start wondering if what you're doing is the right thing and maybe you're being too stubborn.....too stubborn and selfish to see that maybe - just maybe - a situation or someone deserves another chance. Too blinded by fear or getting hurt to realise that maybe the only person missing out..is YOU.

It was a lot to think about and I was really surprised at how much that conversation affected me. So much so, that I acted on those feelings...and then came crashing back down to reality. How dumb people can be sometimes. I really need to work on not being so quick to react to stuff. But the effect that conversation had on me freaked me out a bit. Silly girl.

But yah, I'm OK now. Back to my strong ol' self. I think. I keep telling myself to look forward, not back. Forward. Forward. Forward.

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Stupid Weather

Why is it that on my days off, it always pisses down?

I was so set on going to the gym this evening, but man, I don't wanna walk there in this rain...nor do I want to waste the money getting the train. But then I feel so guilty about not going - especially because I've been really bad over the last month. Plus the classes run really late today and I'm feeling tired.

I know, excuses, excuses.

But now that my friend has left, I want to take the time to straighten out my place again and do all my laundry and crap like that. This is the last time though - I'm not skipping out on any more sessions because I'm feeling lazy. Otherwise I'll never get my Bali body back.

The last time.

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New Moon

So I finally saw the second Twilight movie last night.

And whilst Jacob is INCREDIBLY buff and has a body to DIE for, his face just doesn't cut it. But then again, neither does Edward's in most of the movie. So I guess that means that I'm still on Team Edward.

I have to say I was actually pretty disappointed with the movie. I absolutely LOVED the first one but Bella and her selfish, cock teasing ways just bugged the hell out of me in New Moon. How does anyone stand to watch her?! Poor Jacob, she's all over him and shit and then just discards him whenever the vampires are around. Leads him on and then crushes him.

Sounds horrible familiar... >_<

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Jill Dando

I was thinking today that I would just love to be paid to travel.

And then it reminded me of how much I used to LOVE the programme "Holiday", where Jill Dando would get to travel to all these different countries and check out the culture and the cuisine and get to do all this awesome stuff, all expenses paid and to be paid for it.

I really wanted that job. I was so set against doing something like that...and then she got shot by some obsessive stalker and that put me off being on TV. But I've been thinking about it more and more lately and I could still get involved in something like that. That's not to say that I'm not following the path to diplomatic domination but it's still something I'd like to do. I wonder how you go about doing that.....

So badly want to go on holiday. I haven't been anywhere since I went back to London last summer. It's definitely my longest stretch since I got here without taking a holiday. Man, I've become so spolit.

LOL!

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Suited And Booted

God, how miserable is the weather today?

Apart from the fact that it's absolutely freezing, it's all gloomy grey and raining as well. But in spite of this, I still set out to go shopping. On the list - a suit.

I've needed a new suit for ages but just never got around to buying one. And after a good search today, I came back with two. One expensive one and one slightly cheaper one. I thought it would be a good idea for those occasions where you need to be suited up but you don't want to pull out all the stops you know?

And they both look super hot. LOL!!!

Ever since I started doing step aerobics over a year ago, I've gradually managed to get me an arse!!! I've always hated the fact that my arse has been flat and now I have a nice peachy number in play! Hahahahaha!! And both the trousers on the suits hug my figure so nicely, I had all the staff members tell me how good they looked. Naturally they have to say that coz they want me to buy thhe suit but when I looked around in the mirror, I was so chuffed at the progress I've made in getting a butt!!!

I just need a pair of killer power heels now! I did have a bit of a look around today, but the only pair I liked weren't available in my size. Definitely the next purchase. I want to go shopping again!!! I saw so much cute stuff when I was out and about but I just can't go shopping like I used to, which makes me so sad. I'll have to wait until payday next month so that I can make sure I can put money aside for travelling this year. I'm trying to save 8man a month, which is a lot considering how much I have to pay out with rent and insurance and loads of other crap every month. Might not be possible every month, but I will definitely try! It might be better for me to actually send money home to my UK account and put it into my savings so that I can't touch it.

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Enough Is Enough?

At what point exactly do you say enough is enough?

Do you wait until something gets unbearable? Or do you say enough before it gets to the point that it becomes unbearable?

I'm in a bit of a dilemma right now and I just don't know what to do. And the biggest problem is that I don't really have any option except for one because I won't be able to receive any help. So it's like, do I just give up or do I try and deal with the situation a little bit longer?

Everyone makes things bigger than they are when they hate something. But really, most of the time, it really isn't that bad. And in a way this is no different but I'm one of those people that doesn't just put up with crap as to not cause a fuss. Nor am I one of those people that causes a fuss without giving something a chance.

But the question is, how long do you give something a go for?

It's been barely over 2 months but it feels like 2 years. Is that long enough?

I don't know.

Definitely need a lot of thinking time on this one.

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Aching!!!

OMG my teeth are absolutely caning!

What does it mean?! It's not just one tooth - it's all of them! I wonder if I was grinding my teeth in my sleep or something? But they have been hurting for a couple of days now....

It's doing my head in.

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Lazy Sunday

I have spent literally the whole day in bed catching up with my online TV.

I did have good intentions of going to the gym but when it came down it, I just felt too tired...and just too lazy to go.

God I am LOVING this season of Project Runway. I just absolutely adore that show. I forgot how fun it was to watch. And it alwyas makes me want to be a designer.....for about 10minutes!!!

But now I totally need to go to bed.

Before I do, HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY to my brother.

Night y'all.

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Naughty Naughty

Oh my...last night was a bit of a wild one.

I'm always so tired after work on a Saturday so I am always really impressed when I actually manage to stay out all night.

I love, love, love bumping into friends that I haven't seen for ages. Even the girl that I went out with I hadn't seen since October. Craziness. But you get so busy and caught up doing your own thing that you just don't have time to meet people when you want to - especially not with my stupid schedule.

But yah, it was good to be out and hitting the dance floor. Catching up with friends, making new ones and some pointless flirting all result in a great night.

LOL. Thinking back to some of the things that happened last night just makes me grin my arse off.

;-)

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Baby Steps

You know I told you a few weeks back about one of my babies that stood up for the first time in my classroom?

Well, he's now walking!!!

Awwwwwwwww!!!!

It's crazy how fast all this stuff happens! I have two absolutely adorable baby boys that I teach (I have more baby classes but these two boys are the cutest - by a mile!!!) and it's just amazing watching them each week. As the time goes by they can do more and more stuff and when I saw one walking today, before I could stop it, a massive squeal just escaped from my mouth. He's also started trying to do the actions to the songs - it's so cute.

LOL it's funny how some kids can make you go "Awwwwww" and then others just make you go "euuuuuuwwwww". It's really easy when you're working with such young kids to be put off from having any of your own. I'm not saying I have been - well, actually......maybe a bit, but you know I just look at some parents and I'm just thinking what shit parents they are coz their children are devils.

LOL.

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