Restlessness

It's 2.45am on a Saturday night.

I'm not even tired.....even if I tried to sleep I don't think I could. Everything seems so surreal at the moment. Everywhere I look in my apartment there is a reminder of someone who has left.

I should've guessed inheriting everyone else's stuff would've had consequences!! No matter how good my apartment looks right now.

I think it's coz my man has been with me the last couple of days and now he's gone I want to put off going to bed. Because it feels big and empty without him. Doesn't help that I've inherited a load of his stuff as well so literally EVERYWHERE I look is a reminder of him. And that is the reminder that obviously pulls on the heart strings the most.

I know I'll be OK. I just need time to get used to people not being here. I'm not having a nervous breakdown!!!!!! Give me a month and I'm sure I'll be back to my genki ol' self again.

Well, I hope so. Being miserable totally doesn't suit me darling!!!

xx