Agony

I literally cannot describe the pure AGONY that I have in my heart now.

I told you that I had friends up north. This is the latest update.

3 have been killed in SENDAI

2 have reached evacuation centres in IWATE

4 are safe in FUKUSHIMA and IBARAKI...although they have no electricity or water in their homes

That leaves 5 that are still missing. 4 of these are in Miyagi-ken - the worst hit area. I'm getting more and more certain that they will not be found alive. The quake was on Friday - that's 3 days that has already passed. My phone has been glued to my side all day - I told all my clients I was waiting for news and explained that I would answer the phone if it rang. I got 2 phone calls and 3 messages today. Those three messages were great news. The phone calls sent me in a state of shock where I couldn't comprehend what was happening and just acted like nothing had happened.

When I got into the comfort of my own home, that's when I broke down.

And then I forgot that I had a private lesson! I felt awful when I saw my friend standing there on the doorstep. I don't even treat her like a "student" anymore - we've been friends since I first moved here and she's become so important to me!

There still hasn't been any more news on this upcoming quake. There was a pretty big aftershock this morning - I managed to sleep right through it! Mental exhaustion is taking it's toll.

xoxo