FFS!!!

Man, it feels like I haven't written for ages and I don't know where to start!

Firstly, I'm back in Tokyo. Apart from 2 small aftershocks and still a few empty shelves in the supermarket, it seems like things have been getting back to normal. I started back at work yesterday - to be honest it feels like I've done it a little too soon. Every conversation that I have with a client mentions SOMETHING about the earthquake and I just find myself not listening and thinking about my friends up north. I've been spending time with friends in the evening but it's crappy - I HATE having to admit that I do need emotional support. I don't care that I'm always offering it to other people - it's hard for me to accept it myself.

And I love my friends for giving it to me. =)

I'm just feeling seriously pissed off at myself for doing something fantabulous but utterly stupid. I don't have to spell it out - it's pretty obvious what I'm talking about. I just don't get what it is that keeps making me do it!!! Seriously. But sometimes the ease of something makes everything worthwhile. And that was definitely worthwhile. LOL!!

Now I just need to find someone more worthy and regular!!!!!

xoxo