*BLUSH*

Man, it's kind of embarrassing to be blogging about this stuff! But I figured it's good to let y'all see another side of yours truly.

*blush* *deep breath*

So like, this crush I have is driving me CRAZY! This guy is like constantly on my mind. I know I said I wasn't going to do anything about it but I want to. I'm not going to though. Only because I know him - I have no issues being rejected by a stranger (and yes, that HAS happened! Admittedly very rarely, but it has), but being rejected by someone you know - someone that you will see again...I'm not down for the kind of awkwardness it would cause. He's not even my type - what the hell?! But I'm THIS close to making a move...it's not even that he's given me any signs or anything...but I figured that I may as well take a chance, right? I mean, it can't be THAT bad if he says he's not on it - I just have to deal with it in a way that it's not awkward when I see him again. Right?

So much easier said than done!

What do you think? Should I go for it? Yes? No?

Man, pride is a terrible thing. It's not even like me to hold back like this. Back in the day, I wouldn't even care. But I guess it's because it's different out here. There is no game to play. So I guess you could say I haven't been in the game for such a long time that I'm just not sure about these things as I used to be? Does that sounds about right?

I dunno.

But he's driving me CRAZY!!

Aaaarrrrrggggggghhhh!

xx