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July
The month of saying goodbye. Goodbye to my students, my friends and Karatsu.
My Students
Cap It Off party, last night in Fukuoka, last night out in K-Town!
August
My last few days in Karatsu. On my last weekend I enjoyed a final BBQ on Hamasaki beach with friends. It was a really great time, but at the end of it I had to say goodbye to my girl and another friend that I just didn't see enough of!
Back on London trains
August was my move to Tokyo. I was only in town for a few days before going back to the UK for the first time in 21 months. It was really weird to be back home after such a long time - being able to understand everything going on around me, I found myself constantly eavesdropping on people's conversations. It was great to catch up with friends and it was strange to see how much had changed and stayed the same at the same time.
September
The start of the hectic job search. I actually got offered a job within two weeks of looking, but it wasn't due to start until November. A couple of months of rest, drinking, partying and making new friends, as well as catching up with old ones.
October
This was the month of having friends over to visit! It was so great to see them, even though it had only been a couple of months since I left Kyushu. I also went to see the fabulous Beyonce in concert - what a great show!
Chilling with the greasers in Yoyogi Park
At the Beyonce concert with a couple of my fave boys!
November
Still hanging with one of my K-Town boys, we went to Tokyo tower to check out the promo for the NZ World Cup next year. I have to say, it is actually one of the best promos I have ever seen for a country and now I am totally excited about getting the chance to see the gorgeous NZ!!
I also started work at the end of this month - and what a change it is from ALT life! Working with such young children was such a shock - not only because of their age, but because of their English level. Even a month into it, I am so tired after work every day.
December
After 2 months back in the gym, I am so chuffed with the muscle definition in my arms and legs. Now to work on that washboard stomach, lol!
I've been really reflective this month - thinking back on the year, my failed resolutions and all the things that have happened. I am ready for the new year because I have so many exciting things to look forward to. In the last couple of days alone, I have caught up with so many people and still have more to see because so many people are in Tokyo for the new year. Now I just have to decide what I want to do tonight!
So that's been my year! Hope you enjoyed the pics because it took me ages to upload them onto here!
HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! I hope you all have a fabulous time tonight and may 2010 bring you happiness and success!
Love you all! Thank you so much for following me on my blog - I hope you continue to read next year! More pictures, I promise!
xxx
So here it is. The highlights of 2009. Enjoy!
January
I saw in 2009 in the amazing Cambodia. For me, it absolutely whooped Thailand's arse - an absolutely unforgettable trip. I would add loads of pics of Angkor Wat, but technically it was still 2008 when I was there so I won't. New Year's Day, I went to Beng Melea, which is this awesome temple about 2 hours outside of Siem Reap. Not many tourists go there because it is so far away but it was just incredible - you could seriously explore and I had a lot of fun there.
From left: Celebrating NYE in Siem Reap with a tan and crocodile steak; Beng Melea on New Year's Day; Happy New Year
And how can we forget the inauguration of Barack Obama. Another incredible moment, and the point at which my attitude towards Americans changed a little bit. I mean, if they can elect a black man to be the most powerful man in the world, then they can't be all bad!
February
The month when I found out I passed the JLPT! I remember seeing the results and just being in this massive state of disbelief that I actually managed to pass without having studied. A fluke at it's best!
This is a pretty amusing memory as well - a party I went to in Hizen. I can't remember what the theme was - women?! Anyway, it was really good fun to put my friend into one of my dresses and do his make up.
Ladies out on the town!!!!
March
I made a couple fo trips this month. The first one was a road trip to Shikoku. Tip number one...make sure you have a decent sized car and tip number two...don't go on a road trip with people that you don't know well! Despite a couple of hiccups, Iya Valley was absolutely beautiful. The second was a trip to Kyoto with my girl, which is one of the best trips that I've taken since I've been here. Incredible culture, awesome shopping and nightlife, catching up with an old friend and just having a really, really good time! Definitely my second favourite city after Tokyo. By a mile.
From top left: Shikoku, Kinkaku-ji in Kyoto, cherry blosson season!
April
This was the month when I hardcore starting looking into my options in Tokyo...and when I realised how my friendships with certain people had blossomed to a point that I knew I was going to take them through life with me. I also went back to brunette (which ended up fading back into light brown anyway) and fractured my ankle, leaving me unable to go to the gym for 6 months. Not pleasant at all!
May
A great trip to Taipei and Bali for Golden Week. Not only was I with great friends, but I got to meet up with my girl from England, and I can't even begin to explain how great that was! Another great month for really appreciating all the fabulous people around me.
View from Taipei 101 (the world's tallest building); Borabador (Java); reunited with my girl in Seminyak, Bali; sunset on Kuta beach, Bali.
I had a great afternoon celebrating one of my best friend's birthdays this month as well. We made him an awesome lunch, cooking steaks on his balcony on a ghetto arse disposable BBQs. Good times.
The birthday lunch With my boys <3>
I had a great birthday this year. It started with a BBQ at a beachside restaurant and then a camping party on the fabulous Hamasaki Beach. A place which I know I'm really going to miss when summer comes around next year. I ended up celebrating my birthday for an entire week. At the beginning of the month as well, I came to Tokyo for a few days for flathunting and found the perfect house...which I still have no pictures of!
At Jammin with friends and on the gorgeous Hamasaki beach
During this year, me and my girls enjoyed fabulous nights out at our favourite haunt, where we downed bottle after bottle of fabulous wine and champagne, always followed by song destructions in karaoke!
OMG I finally ugraded to Windows 7 today.
I AM LOVING IT!!! So much!!! It looks better, is so ridiculously easy to use and has some AWESOME new features and gadgets. I have been a complete geek today reading up and trying EVERYTHING!!
I love how you can keep a fabulously clean and tidy taskbar, no matter how much stuff you have open. And I have to say that the Peek and Shake features are absolutely genius. GENIUS!!! And so much fun to use!!!
If you haven't upgraded yet, YOU NEED TO!!! Check out info about it online - that alone will make you want to upgrade. Vista sucks!!!
Now, as promised, I am gonna start working on my 2009 Highlights entry!
xx
I am in such a good mood today!
My mum sent me three packages from England but one of them hadn't shown up and I was really sad because I thought it was lost in the post. But then when I came back from the gym today, I saw a note saying that it was waiting for me at the central post office, so I'm gonna go and pick it up tomorrow. Yay!
I always get in a really good mood after I've been food shopping as well because it means I can get back into my cooking and make such yummy meals this week! I spent the whole of yesterday eating chocolate and most of what was sent to me by my mum and my friend has gone. Such a pie. But I can't help it - I just have to scoff the whole lot in one go! Hehe!
Since I got back from the supermarket, I have just been chilling. Tomorrow I'm gonna be catching up with a friend that I haven't seen since either the London or Tokyo orientation for JET - I can't remember which. Anyway, it's been over 2 years since I've seen him, so I'm really looking forward to that. And then tomorrow evening I have a friend staying over so I'm looking forward to seeing him...and getting the goodies that he's brought me back from the States.
I also got to speak to one of my boys in Karatsu today which always makes me happy. I love him to death and miss him a lot, so it was nice to have a catch up.
And on top of all of that goodness, no work until 5th! What a nice break! It's just a shame I didn't have any cash otherwise I could've taken a decent trip in that amount of time. Oh well, it'll be my first Xmas and New Year here - I guess I would've had to have done it sometime.
I've just been looking through all the photos that I've taken this year. I'm gonna do a month by month highlight of the year - just a few pictures and brief comments. Kinda like '2009 in Pictures'! It's realy nice to look back on actually. I might not have taken many trips this year but the ones I have taken were amazing. I'm looking forward to sharing my highlights with you all.
I'm feeling so good, I can barely keep the smile of my face. I love feeling like this - it doesn't happen very often but so much is gonna happen next year, it's the excitement of that and having this really chilled, relaxing last week of this year. Plus I realise that I have so many great people around me and even though I don't get to see everyone as often as I would like, it doesn't mean that I don't value them. I've met some truly awesome people during the time that I've been here and the greatest thing about that is that they are friends that I will take through life with me. Obviously not everyone, but I know that these special people know who they are!! LOL!! I hope so anyway!
So look out from tomorrow for my highlights of 2009!!
xx
Kinda!
No more work until 5th January!!
I am so tired and really looking forward to totally chilling out. Last night I was in bed before 1 and I just couldn't wait to go to sleep. And today is the start of the massive cleanup that I'm having before the new year rolls around. The shittest thing about having so much time off right now, is that I don't get paid until 10th so I can't go shopping! Or do any of the other things that I want to do! And my first full paycheck is gonna disappear so quickly after paying my rent, phone bill, health insurance and shopping. I am so impressed that I haven't been shopping once since I moved here. I mean, I've been with other people, but I haven't done any myself. Pretty amazing considering I used to go at least twice a month.
Even though I didn't really celebrate this year, I love looking at pics of people who did. It just reminds me of Christmas last year in Thailand, new year in Cambodia and my mum's cooking. Without your family and best friends around, Christmas really is just another day....unless you're travelling. And I would LOVE to be on a beach right now, getting all tanned and gorgeous.
Time to start thinking about those resolutions...as soon as I've done my cleaning! Gonna be taking a look back at 2009 as well so stay tuned for lots of awesome pics to come!!
Enjoy stuffing your face over the festive season!
Love you all!
xx
K -w ell I guess it's not Christmas anymore! I've just seen the time!
How did I spend my Christmas day? Working, bollocking kids and in the gym. Fascinating stuff!
I just called home - I totally wish you could send a turkey dinner in the post. I know I could go to a pub or restaurant and get a Christmas dinner here, but it's never the same as your mum's cooking!
I totally thought it was the weekend - well, for most of you it is, but I have to work Saturdays and I cam completely knackered! The long arse commute I have is really starting to knacker me out - unless I'm reading, or lesson planning or something, then it seems to take forever and that's when I start feeling really pissed off about it. Even listening to music doesn't seem to speed up the time! On the negative side, there's been a couple of times when I've been so engrossed in reading or lesson planning that I've completely missed my stop. That happened this week, but I only went one stop too far. The first time it happened, I went something stupide like 6 stops too far. I remember thinking that I hadn't transferred and that's when I actually started listening to the announcements and realised where I was.
Urgh...commuting sucks. I badly miss my car. I'd much rather have to drive to work than take the train...it's comfier and I'd get to sing along to the music as loudly as I want. And I wouldn't be pressed up against stinky people either.
Another Christmas over...I think this is the first year ever that I haven't celebrated it. Just treated myself to lots of cake and chocolate! Does that count?
xx
OMG I am in possession of TURKISH DELIGHT!!!
That's just one of the fabulous things that I received in one of the 3 packages I picked up from the Post Office today. 2 from my mum and one from my girl in the States rammed with chocolate.
I am surrounded by chocolate, crisps and TURKISH DELIGHT!!!
Ever since I saw it in The Lion, The Witch and The Wardobe, I have loved that stuff. But it has to be proper turkish delight - not that crap that's covered in chocolate. I ate too much for dinner and now I feel sick so I'm gonna start on all these goodies from tomorrow. Christmas Day - great timing!
Yay to Christmas goodies! It's nice to have something to indulge in over the Christmas season!
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!
xx
With today being a holiday, I had a massive plan to finally tidy up and clean my house.
FAIL!!
I was at the gym for the best part of the day and when I finally made it back home, I was so tired, I just wanted to slob out in front of the TV. And now it's much too late to think about doing any cleaning! Grrrr...I will do it either Sunday or Monday because it's driving me crazy now. Relax, wasn't working out the whole day - there were gaps between my classes and I didn't wanna go home and then go back again so I just chilled out in the lounge...and spent stupid amounts of time in the whirlpool and sauna.
I'm also trying to make some plans for NYE. I kinda don't wanna be stuck inside one club or bar. I wanna be out on the streets of Shibuya or Shinjuku celebrating with everyone. I think I'll do that...but I'll see what everyone else is up to. I can't believe the year is nearly over - time has literally flown by this year. But I'm glad...like loads of other peopl , I'm ready for the fresh start.
xx
I always get freaked out when I read about people who just die from a cardiac arrest - no signs or anything - they just drop dead.
First reports are saying that's what happened to Brittany Murphy, but what freaks me out more is that she was just 32. That is only 6 years older than me. It just shows that it could happen to ANYONE and that is so scary.
Always gives me the motivation to try and live a healthier life - it might not last for very long, but at least the motivation is there!
Next year.
;-)
I've had a really productive day!
Well, admittedly it could've been MORE productive but whatever!
Feeling really tired now though - it's absolutely freezing outside but I'm definitely handling the winter a lot better than I have done over the past two years. Probably because my house actually heats up and gets all nice and warm and cozy. Unlike the shitty studio I had before which just NEVER felt warm, no matter how long the heater was on. I used to sit inside wearing a scarf, hat and coat and sleeping in 4 layers and socks. At least I don't have to do any of that! And because my eikawa school is in a shopping centre, all the classrooms have heaters and are all toasty and warm. So no more teaching wearing 5 layers of clothes and a coat..and looking like a size 20! That feels so good!
And speaking of productivity, I need to go and hang up my washing!
xx
Wow, this week has been so crazy busy, I've hardly had time to update you with what's going on!
Not that anything major is.....work has just been so ridiculously busy that when I finally do make it home, all I wanna do is kick back and relax in front of the TV.
Have you seen the movie "Volcano"? It was on TV the other night and I actually really liked it! I've spent a lot of time this week as well catching up with a couple of special friends and reflecting back on the year.
But seriously, I am looking forward to next year so much. A lot of stuff is going down and I just can't wait. I have so many plans, so many goals and intend to be reunited with some of my favourite people that it's all just so exciting and when I think about it all, I just get the biggest smile on my face ever. This year has been really up and down but some of the highlights were definitely my trip to Kyoto, Bali and my birthday. All seriously awesome times. And there are plenty more to come in 2010. I want to spend the rest of this year clearing out - my room, my phone books, my FB....everything, so I can start the new year on the right foot.
So pumped.
So excited.
Yay to 2010!!!
xx
I FINALLY made it to the supermarket. And now I finally get to cook instead of eating crap from the conbini everyday.
I totally miss cooking, but with my dodgy work hours, I'm normally knackered by the time I finally get it. But I wanna change that this week, not just so that I can save money, but I actually wanna feel healthier as well.
I got my first Xmas card and present today from my baby girl in Canada. I LOVE YOU!!! And I miss you like crazy but you already know that!!
xx
I was knackered when I finished work last night, but I went out for dinner and a couple of drinks with my manager in Omori.
We were getting on the train back home and were kinda like...yeh we totally still wanna drink....and ended up pulling a fabulous all nighter in Shinjuku. It was so much fun because not only do we get along great, I bumped into loads fo my fave boys!!
It was ghastly though coz we were in work clothes with barely any make up, I had glue in my hair (thanks to my little shits) and was carrying a bag full of lesson materials!! I hate going out like that but it was such a spontaneous thing so there was nothing I could do about it...I walked about looking like a complete and utter DOG!!
I haven't been out in such a long time, it was awesome...and I didn't even spend that much money! Although I might have to cut down on buying my dinner every night and find the energy to cook so I can save the cash!
Really good night. LOL - another whole night of looking but not touching! What a waste!
xx
I have become such a softie in my old age!!!
The latest episode of Gossip Girl made me bawl my eyes out! It's not even like it was particularly sad or anything!
I have had a thumping headache all day - and no matter how many tablets I take, it just won't go away. My to do list is just getting longer and longer, but I just don't seem to be able to find the time to do anything! I'm knackered by the time I get back in from work - I just wanna kick back, relax and catch up with TV shows online! Still have loads to go but it's all good - better than watching everything at once like I used to!
Chill time.
Nice.
xx
Ah man, I can't believe Danyl has been voted off the X Factor.
It was blatantly obvious that Joe was gonna go through but I think that Danyl has a better vocal than both Ollie and Stacey - even though I do love both of them. What it comes down to is likeability and the other two have way more than he does.
But how gorgeous has he become over the live shows? PHWOAR!!! Talk about my type!!! And I just adore his voice as well.
Now, where am I gonna get me one of those in Tokyo.....
xx
After spending Saturday night, the whole of Sunday and a couple fo hours last night, I have finally finished all of my Xmas prep. And even though the kids probably won't appreciate it, it's always nice to feel pride in your work.
Pretty Woman was on TV last night - I forgot how much I LOVE that movie! And on Saturday night I watched the first Twilight movie - my housemate rented it....I'd never seen/heard anything about it until people started raving about the release of New Moon. I absolutely LOVED it! Right now I'm sitting on the Edward bandwagon, but I have no idea when that first movie came out, so that may change after I see the second movie. When it started, I was like urgh - another teeny bop movie, but it wasn't long before I was totally sucked in - glued to the screen right until the end. I never wanted it to finish. And now I'm totally excited about catching up on everything that I've missed...although I'm not exactly sure what I HAVE missed. I need to be Twilight educated!
Jumper was on last night as well - I remember seeing it at the cinema...but I can't remember who I saw it with and it's bugging me. Still enjoyed it the second time around though.
Now I'm hoping I can enjoy a more relaxing week after the craziness of the last 8 days.
Here's to hoping.
xx
Doh!
I was on the train and I was thinking about something...and then I was thinking how I totally needed to blog about it...
And now for the life of me, I can't remember what it was!! Such a busy day - I finished work two hours later than usual, which is so not cool for a Saturday night!
Argh...what WAS it?!
xx
Testing kids is probably the most annoying thing ever!!
Wrong day to eff with me kids!! I actually lost my temper in one of my classes today...the kids are just soooo bad that I told them if they didn't shut up and behave, then they would get 0%. They decided to call my bluff - ha! WRONG MOVE!! I ended up telling 2 of them that they got 0% and they were so shocked, they were as good as gold for the rest of the lesson.
The sad thing is they got 95% and 89%. But you know, I can't turn around and tell them that - I told the mothers though, who seemed perfectly happy to allow their kids to be shit scared about telling them that they got 0%. I've also told them that if they're kids are gonna carry on being a pain in the arse, then I won't be teaching them again. There's a difference between a kid who is just a shit and a kid who is beyond being a shit and destroys the class every single week. The teacher before me told me that she spent 95% of that class every week shouting and I don't wanna do that....and I know I don't have to put up with that either!! It's not like they're new students either - they've been going to that eikawa for years so there's absolutely no excuse for their behaviour!
LOL - only 2 weeks into my job and I'm complaining already! But I'd rather do something about it now....never have been one to keep my mouth shut!
One more day of testing left...and then starts the mad rush to get everything ready for the Christmas lessons starting next week! Talk about not giving teachers enough time!!
xx
I am seriously busy with work every single day.
It's exam week this week and it's really hard to find the time to do the marking when you have one class after another. I'm starting to get used to these weird hours now and I actually don't mind not having my evenings...it's not like I'm gonna be going out anyway during the week. The crappy thing is though, I've become sooo lazy with cooking! I hate the fact that I'm buying two meals a day - I don't wanna waste the money! But when I'm walking through the door after 10pm, I just can't be arsed!!
So crazy that we're nearly at the end of the year. And what a year it's been - emotional roller coaster ride!!!
xx
I just don't get some people sometimes. The way people react over certain things will always be a mystery to me. And it's like, they don't even take the time to explain why they reacted the way that they did. I just feel like screaming at some people because if I ask you why you react the way you do and then you choose to ignore the question...is that the reaction from me that you wanted?!
What is the point of that?
Or do some people just ignore the question because it makes them feel like smug that it leaves you wondering?
This is nothing big and serious by the way! It's just that sometimes people and their weird ways do my head in! And I've been seeing it more and more recently in so many different people and people doing it to other people that I just don't understand the mindset that goes behind behaving like a child.
What's wrong with just good ol' fashioned talking? Why do people insist of playing silly little games that just have absolutely no purpose with each other? I get that people do play games with an end result....but when people play games just because they CAN....why bother wasting the time and energy? Just get a life!! I could give you all some of my marking to do if you really want!!
LOL!!
Just a rant. I'm feeling really weird today. I had a bit of a tough month last month and didn't get the support that I needed. People always pretend to be strong and say that we don't need the help but really we all do. True friends manage to see through that. Unfortunately the person that I did tell, wasn't able to - but at the same time I can't really blame them. We weren't good friends and some people just are unable to read others. Why can't people just work it out?! I was at Kawasaki station today and it was so festive and gorgeous, it actually made me really sad to know that no one is really gonna be around for Christmas, so I have like no plans. And to top it off, I'll be working on Christmas day.
Booo!!
I really hate this constant feeling of tiredness that's been going on with me lately.
I couldn't get up for the life of me this morning to go to the gym. I know I got enough sleep, but I just don't get why I always feel like I haven't slept in days! Starting back at work was bound to take it's toll but even though I go to bed around midnightish, apart from Saturdays (when I have to get up at 7.45) I'm not getting up until 9am! Which is more than enough sleep for me. I remember when I was living in Kyushu I was going to bed later and getting up earlier. Maybe I just need to get used to working again or something...there was a lot to take in last week so maybe that just knackered me out or something.
And then this week is all testing which I'm a little nervous about because I have to do EVERTHING. It's kinda crazy because there is so much that I have to remember, along with doing the listening and oral sections and then all the marking, feedback and certificates. On top of that I will need to find time to do all the planning for next weeks classes as well....looks like I might be taking work home with me this week! I always said that I would never do that with this job, but it's looking like I'm going to have to. Or I could at least do it during my commute - there's definitely enough time! I just have to be careful not to get everything mixed up. So crazy when you have like 7 levels and over 100 students to take care of.
I went to the ward office today to try and sort out this malarky with my pension. I was in there for an hour and a half but it was worth it because I just have to wait for some paperwork from my old BOE and then go back down there and I should then be exempt from paying for a few months. I just told them flat out that I couldn't pay it because I've only just started work. We'll see what happens with that...I hope it doesn't mean that they're just gonna add it on to my payments next year!!
So much paperwork. I just feel like my head is constantly filled with all these things that I have to do. And that list is getting longer and longer!
xx
I am so tired!
I dragged my tired body to the gym earlier and nearly left one of my aero classes early because I just couldn't be bothered. But i didn't...I stuck it out. And now I'm just exhausted.
I think the craziness of my first week at work is catching up with me. So much stuff to take it and some complete nightmare kids to deal with. And I DO actually have to deal with them - no hiding behind a JTE and leaving all the discipline up to them - this is all me. And I have some serious little shits that I've shouted at already.
Next week all the classes have tests. Yes - even the babies. I'm working my way through their test papers as we speak. I had the same question you probably have - how the hell do you test a baby?!?! It's basically giving them instructions to point and touch things on the page to see if they remember words and stuff, and see if they know the actions to the songs. Weird, I know, but apparently parent really like seeing the certificate at the end of it all - to show off to other parents that their kid can speak English. Certificates that I have to write out and make all the evaluation comments on. For every single student.....I teach 6 classes a day, every day - where the hell am I supposed to get the time to do all the marking, make all the certificates and write all the comments?!?! And no way am I taking this work home with me - they can forget that idea as fast as they like!!!!
So much prep to do.
On a different note, I have this real urge to go and see come kind of contemporary dance show. I was watching this documentary, and the dancing on it literally made me cry - it was so beautiful. So if anyone knows of any good shows, then let me know!!
Cheers me dears!
xx
I was watching last night's X Factor show earlier and it made me wanna go back and look at some clips of when Leona Lewis started her journey to international superstardom!
Since she won the show 3 years ago or something, not a single contestant has ever managed to come close to that calibre of talent. No way near. In all of the live shows, she gave a flawless performance week after week - her voice is truly incredible.
She deserves all the success that she's had since winning that show. And she is the reason why I watch reality shows like this one...because they discover pure talent. She is just so amazing - I never tire of hearing her voice.
And if you haven't heard anything of her new album, Echo, then check it out!
xx
One of my favourite people that I have met here is gonna be leaving Japan soon.
And the worst bit about it isn't just the fact that he is leaving, it's that I don't even get to say goodbye.
=(
It's weird because when I was back in London, I always thought that I knew nice people. But since being in Japan, I have actually discovered GENUINELY nice people. And this guy is just fabulous! He's funny and so great to hang out with - not that I got to see him as much as I would've liked, but the times that we did hang out were always so much fun and I'm really, really gutted that I don't get to see him one last time just to give him the biggest hug in the world!
And braid his hair! Hehe!!
Gonna miss you lovey!! Safe trip back home and make sure you stay in touch!! I'll mail you my skype...if you don't have skype - GET IT!!
Love ya babes!!
xxxxxxxxxxxx
Today was my first day back in the classroom....
...and man, have I got some nightmare children!!
Teaching babies is actually pretty incredible. Their comprehension of what you are saying is amazing, even if they can only say a few words back. Not to mention the fact that they are ADORABLE!! Sooooooo cute!! Infant classes have a lot of little shits in - kids that just can't keep still and never shut up. They are definitely going to be a handful.
Elementary kids and above are definitely in my comfort zone, but there are some really difficult kids in those classes as well. As for the JHS class I had today - what a load of attitude!! But I am hoping to change that as time goes on.
But one thing that all the classes have in common is that the level that they are working at has absolutely stunned me. I can't believe that a 2 year old can write in English, that a 4 year old can answer questions in short sentences and an 11 year old can do the same grammar (but not well!) as a 3nensei JHS kid.
And it's all thanks to these pushy mummies. So many of them were watching the class through the window - probably because they want to grab a peek at the new teacher but more than anything, they want to make sure that they are getting their money's worth.
I've started at a really busy time. Next week, all the classes, including the babies (?!?!?!), have a test. The week after that I have to do all the Christmas classes. It's all quite overwhelming because I have to get my head around all the books and CDs and everything and there are so many of them for each level, it's really confusing.
Over to my second school tomorrow!
xx
I will not think about how I'm supposed to be partying it up tonight in ageHa listening to Armin van Buuren, Dj Yoda and Glenn Morrison...instead of being stuck at home with some 'maybe' plans!!
*SOB*
Since I have been so slack with studying this year, recently I've found myself trying to translate English quotes into Japanese. I'm not sure why - one day when I was looking for my 'quote of the day' I found myself wondering how I would say the same thing in Japanese. Obviously the Japanese have their own 諺, but I wanted to use English ones to see if I could try and convey the same meaning in Japanese.
And to be honest, I have no idea how I'm doing. I'm careful with which ones I post up on FB because I don't want to offend anyone with bad translation!
It's really hard as well, but I'm gonna keep at it. Especially since I haven't done any studying this year - it kinda makes me feel like I'm doing something!
xx
I finished the training for my new job today...and boy, it was INTENSE!!
So much new information, so many rules and regulations to follow - it couldn't be a world further away than that of an ALT. It's not until you leave JET that you realise just how damn EASY you had it. That's why it drives me mad now to hear JETS complaining that they have nothing to do, that they're bored, blah, blah, blah.
Well let me tell you, it's better than having a jam packed schedule like mine - that doesn't even end with the teaching. No free periods, a mountain of paperwork, time logging, discipline, marketing, recruiting, model lessons, planning trips, meetings, summer and winter school, constant planning, socialising with the parents...and a hell of a lot more. And none of this you can get away without doing. It's all mandatory.
I kind of like the challenge though. At least I know that I will be well utilised. Not to mention the fact that private eikaiwa = heated classrooms! No more wearing 5 layers, a scarf and a coat in the classroom...and looking a hundred sizes bigger. All the schools are located within shopping centres so it's all toasty inside! I'm looking forward to getting started, even though I know that I'm gonna be mad busy, it's better than sitting on your arse all day at school with nothing to do. Although to be fair, that never really happened to me that often because I had so many schools on JET.
But these 3 days of training have knackered me out. I was supposed to be out on the town tonight but I've cancelled my plans. It's not even just because I'm so tired, I can't afford it. Finding out that I do actually have to pay all these pension slips and health insurance that were sent in the post to me (and that I ignored) has really screwed my financial situation and I just can't afford to do anything. I have a backlog of payments now and it's just going to be a constant struggle from here on - to catch up with those payments whilst staying on top of my rent and bills and my gym membership. A lot of money....which I just don't have.
Looks like I'll be staying in for a while!
xx
I finally started my new job today!
Well, I started the training. So much to take in, I couldn't believe it! I start shadowing the teacher that I'm taking over from next week and apparently she's really popular...great....that makes my job that little bit harder!
It is so crazy what these kids learn. A 3 year old learning to write?!?! At public school my 1 nensei at JHS couldn't even write their name! Such a different curriculum! I am actually really impressed with how quickly they advance to making whole sentences and stuff. But it's insane because each age group has like 4 textbooks each, including this really difficult homework book!
I got to watch a baby class today and I was in hysterics. Watching these mothers frantically trying to stop their kid from just wondering around and falling flat on their faces. And it's so funny because half the time they just look seriously confused, wondering what the hell is going on - super cute but I can imagine that they are going to be a complete pain in the arse! My schedule is pretty intense in terms of the number of lessons I'm teaching - 6 classes EVERY day. No free periods. I'm wondering how that's gonna go down - as a JET I was used to getting some free time during the week, and now I find out that I'm not going to get any.
I'm so tired! And my brain feels ready to explode with all the information that I was given today. But it feels good to be doing something and earning money...even the commute wasn't that bad. Although I think I may wear lower heels for the rest of the week!
xx
These season of Gossip Girl is killing me with its awesomeness!!!
I am just LOVING it!! Love, love loving it!
And the new episode of How I Met Your Mother had me in stitches as well!
Don't hate on me for watching so much TV! As of tomorrow, it all changes!
xx
Man, I have been thinking so much about Brasil over the last week.
My friend showed me the video for Rio's Olympic bid and it just brought back so many memories from when I was living there. Living in Brasil generally, not just Rio.
I think it's so great that they won the bid. But I really hope that when people go over there, they don't just stick to the south. Salvador do Bahia is my absolute favourite place in Brasil. The north has all the Afro-Brasileiro influences and it is just an incredible, incredible place, full of music and dancing and the most wonderful people and food. The further south you go, the more European Brasil becomes. And there is nothing wrong with that, I just want people to see both sides that's all.
I'm really missing it! It's kinda crept up on me! I will definitely make it back there one day. If there's one country that I want to do voluntary work in, it's that one. But in the meantime...
...support the Rio Olympics!!
xx
I'm in my last couple of days of bumming around before I go back into full time employment.
It's not like I've been a complete bum - I've been working out nearly every day and stuff. Admittedly I have spent more time in front of the TV than I think I have in my entire 2 years here but that's all about to change - I'll be surprised if I get to watch TV at all with the crazy hours that I'm gonna be working.
Speaking of TV - this year's X Factor is full of surprises. I can't believe that Jamie got kicked off over Lloyd. I know Lloyd actually gave a decent performance this week and Jamie's popularity has been steadily dwindling but STILL!! I've come not to expect anything from that show any more!!
And go Danni!! She is whooping Cheryl's arse in the style wars this year!
Today at the gym went so slowly - it felt like I was in my aerobics classes for 3 hours or something and it was only 1hr 20 mins. Time is dragging today - I still feel knackered from the weekend and you know when you spend the whole day recovering, your sleep pattern gets all messed up, so even though you got loads of sleep, you're still tired. I just hope that it doesn't mess me up for the whole week.
And I've also decided to detox. Well, I say detox but all I mean is that I'm not gonna drink any alcohol until the end of the month. At least. After what I put away last week, I just don't feel healthy at all and it seems pointless going to the gym as much as I have been if I'm just gonna undo everything by the time the weekend comes around. So I'm gonna just stop - it's not that hard. When I was living in Kyushu I rarely got to drink anyway coz I was always driving.
I just wanna get back into good health!
xx
I had such a fun night last night!
Even though everyone bailed on me, I hit up a few bars and clubs in Roppongi. Man, I LOVE dancehall and reggae. There is this awesome Jamaican bar and the owner really takes care of me! Even through in some darts and champagne!!
But I was mixing my drinks like no one's business and am really paying the price today. I rolled in at 7am and after stuffing my face with fabulous McDonald's breakfast yumminess, I went straight to bed. I'm one of those people, that no matter what time I go to bed after an all nighter, I will always wake up a few hours later. And I hate them because you don't get the chance to sleep off the hangover. So I got up at like 11 and watched the X Factor instead! HOW great is Danyl looking?! LOL!!
Then it was back to bed. And even though it's 8pm, I still feel awful!! I'm detoxing as of next week - my alcohol intake from last weekend until now has been stupid. And I'm just getting fatter.
No drinking in the week. I mean it!
xx
Have you seen the latest episode of Ugly Betty?
Adam Rodriguez is in it and looks absolutely INCREDIBLE!!! I mean, he's hot enough in CSI Miami but daaaaaammmmmnnnnnnn!! Give me a guy like that any day!!!
What is he? Like, Cuban/Puerto Rican or something?
Absolute perfection.
Mmmmmmmmm.
xx
OMG I feel amazing! Tired, but amazing.
I went to the gym this morning and what was supposed to be a pretty straightforward aqua class, turned into the hardest session I've ever had in the pool! The regular teacher cancelled and this woman that did the class today was hardcore! My arms were CANING at the end of the aqua boxing class. But it's awesome because they are all toned and gorgeous and I have my muscle definition back. And don't even get me started on how fabulous my legs look right now! LOL! All I need is a tan!
After the aqua I had some time before my aerobics classes so I chilled with a face pack and a looooonnngg soak in the onsen. After the classes were done, I treated myself to a hair mask and relaxed in the mist sauna before slathering fabulous creams all over my body!!
Nothing like a bit if self pampering to feel fabulous!
And now I'm gonna have a long 'nap'. Out on the town tonight and it's gonna be an all nighter so I wanna be ready!!
Night!
xx
...for sports!
Firstly, yay to David Hayes! The first Brit to win the WBA Heavyweight Title since 2003! Did you see that mammoth guy he was fighting?! He was like a foot taller than him or something and ridiculousy heavier. Proud moment for the British!
Then came a shocker - Robert Enke committed suicide!! I can't believe it! He was such a great goalie - definitely would've been playing in the world cup next year. I haven't heard the whole story about what happened about this - apparently he got hit by a train on Tuesday and left a suicide note for his family. Crazy stuff.
Then another shocker - Roger Federer got knocked out in the second round of the Paris Masters Crown! Poor guy - if Nadal keeps going like he is, I think he's gonna end the year as the world number 1.
And fabulous congrats to Serena Williams - she has won a whopping 28million dollars in prize money - more than any other female athlete. And good for her! She has won every grand slam going at least once, with 11 grand slam titles in total. Crazy, crazy success! Quite an inspirational woman!
And then there's me who couldn't even make it to the gym this morning!
xx
Man, my alcohol intake this last week has been absolutely shocking!
And last night was no exception! What started out as 'just a JD and coke' turned into finishing bottles of wine and vodka.
Eurgh!
I don't even like JD!!! But it was just there so I was like yeh, go on then!
Not going to do me any good I'll tell ya!
LOL!
xx
I hate it when you think that you have something all figured out...and then all it takes is one person to give you a different perspective on stuff to make you realise that you really don't have a clue what you're doing.
Ah man.
I dunno.
There's pros and cons to every situation. Except this one has way more cons! But for some reason I seem really reluctant to give up on it just because everything would be easier if I did. And because someone wants me to.
I don't know why I'm finding this so hard to deal with - I'm way stronger than this, so I'm not sure why I'm getting so emotional about it. Maybe because I don't have my close friends here to hold my hand!
xx
I was watching this show earlier called 'The Sexiest Action Heroes'. I'm not sure where it started, but I came in at number 19. I thought I'd share the top 10 with you!!
1. Zhang Ziyi
2. Duane Johnson (The Rock)
3. Vin Diesel
4. Jessica Alba
5. Will Smith
6. Keira Knightley
7. Brandon Routh
8. Jennifer Garner
9. Chris Evans
10. Paul Walker
Firstly, I am totally shocked at the number 1!! Like yeh, Ziyi Zhang is really pretty, not really sexy, but I can't even believe Angelina Jolie hasn't even made it into the top 10! Brandon Routh, Jennifer Garner and Chris Evans shouldn't be there at all in my opinion! And the Rock IS gorgeous - but not at number 2!! Paul Walker should be definitely higher up. Keira Knightley has a well deserved spot, as does Jessica Alba - OMG her body in "Into The Blue" is to DIE for!! If ever I need inspiration to get my lazy, fat arse down the gym, that is it!!!
Paul Walker....DRRRRROOOOOOLLLLLLL!!!
LOL!!
xx
For the last few weeks, despite setting an alarm, I haven't been able to get up on Wednesdays to go to the gym.
It's not even like went to bed stupidly late last night, but when that alarm went off at 8.30, I just rolled over and went back to sleep. Always on Wednesdays - weird huh?
And the other shitty thing is that I do have to go out today coz I have an appointment and it is absolutely pissing down!! I don't wanna go anywhere.
Gah!
xx
Being here in Japan, it's really easy to get caught up in everything that you forget what your initial goals were.
I was talking to my friend last night, and I realised that I had gone completely off track regarding my career goals. It's not like I had forgotten what it is that I want to do, but I have been so slack in actually doing anything to get there.
Not anymore. I went online last night and checked out the homepage for the Foreign and Commonwealth Offices and I fell in love with Diplomatic Service all over again! Well, being an Operational Officer in Diplomatic Service. So now I feel like I've had this massive kick up the arse to continue working towards this...starting with studying Japanese. After all, it's what I came here to do and I have been lazy this year. I wanna apply through the Fast Stream programme and it takes the best part of the year and a billion tests and I'm not at the age where it's OK to take your time!! I don't wanna start the application without my 1kyuu in the JLPT either. And that itself is another couple of years studying here...which means that I will be 28 by the time I start the application process - and that sounds scarily old!
But I'm also gonna look into options at the British Embassy here during that application process. Yeh, teaching might be the easiest thing to do here and pay well, but it's also a waste of my time. It's been good but it's not like I wanna stay working in education. I don't believe in taking the easiest route - I would rather be working in a field relevant to my final career choice, even if it means making less money and working harder. Maybe if I was younger, I would stay in teaching during the whole process but I just don't feel like I have that time anymore.
I totally wanna be in a position of serious influential power!! Being a diplomat might not be the most powerful position in the world but I love what it involves and I know that I'll be awesome! Hehe!
Oooohhh I'm all excited and motivated now! I really hope that feeling lasts because I really need to start studying. I wonder if I work my arse off I'll be ready to take 2kyuu next summer instead of next Christmas...that was the original plan but seeing how I haven't studied at all this year, I didn't think it was possible to be ready in time. I might give it a bash...we'll see how much time I have when I start working next week.
One more week of unemployment left! Time is moving so fast!
xx
Awwww you guys!!!
I love you all!!
Even though I haven't said what's going on with me right now, I just wanna tell you how much I really appreciate all the emails and phone calls and all your support. You lot are amazing!!
LOL and I love the attempts to cheer me up! I hate that I laugh at seriously crap jokes! Hehe!
Need to stop thinking that I can find the answer at the bottom of a bottle though! Not to sound like a complete alcoholic but I seriously hit the booze last night and man, when I woke up this morning...I don't even know how to begin to tell you how I felt! I can't believe I actually dragged my arse down to the gym with a pounding heading. But I definitely sweat out the booze...LOVELY!!
But anyways, I just wanted to thank you guys for your support. I'm sure I'll be able to work this out but I definitely will with you all helping me!
xoxo
Ah man.
It's at times like this that I wish that certain people were here. When you go through certain things, I've always found that people are amazing with different things. Some are able to give you the support that you actually need and want, some are able to give you the distraction that you need and want, and some are just amazing at making you laugh AND helping you through stuff.
When you move and something happens, you don't have any of these people around you. I haven't been here long enough to get to know people well enough to fill these roles, so it's like I just have to deal with things by myself. Which is not cool right now.
There's only one person that knows what's going on and if the truth be told, I don't see how they can help me. I don't even think they know how to help...I don't even know how I want them to help...if I even want them to. There are some people that when they don't know what to do, they just end up making you feel worse. I haven't worked out if this person is one of those people yet. I don't mean that in a horrible way but I'm sure you must get what I mean. And the crappest bit is that when the only person who knows is someone that you don't really get along with, well, what are you supposed to do?
xx
One of the things I love about Tokyo is having access to British pubs. There are LOADS of them here! And whilst they may be a tad expensive, it's worth every penny!
But I'm definitely paying the price this morning! I wasn't even out that late, rolling in at maybe 1.30am? In my drunken state, I decided that was the perfect time to watch the latest episode of Project Runway! I really don't get the things I do sometimes. I mean, I was falling asleep in the taxi on the way home, and I was pretty sure that I was gonna dive straight into bed.
I do love Project Runway though. What a great show. Although I think Project Runway Canada is better because Iman is absolutely BRUTAL! Her critiques are just so blunt and honest and I LOVE her! Plus in this season, some of the contestants are really annoying. Carol Hannah constantly looks like she's been punched in the face, or hasn't had enough sleep...THAT'S how awful her eye make up is. I just don't get...she's looking in a mirror...how can she not see how bad it looks?!
Needless to say I didn't make it to the gym this morning. Saturdays are always really busy anyway...but I have to meet a couple of friends today. I just wanna stay in bed and watch movies! LOL! I haven't had a free Saturday in over 2 months! And this month is no exception. It's crazy because I keep banging on about how I have to save money but it's practically impossible right now!
Doh!
xx
Man, I have been rushing around all day!
When they told me that I had to go to the Immigration Office to change the status of my visa, for some unknown reason, I never anticipated the ridiculous wait that I would have there! Lucky for me, I had my book.
And then what was supposed to be a super quick trip to Nissin turned into an 1man trolley full of cheese, bagels and other foreign goodness! Money that I should not be throwing away like that right now!! But the smoked salmon and cream cheese bagel that I made when I got back home made me realise that it was worth it...maybe! I'm just annoyed that I couldn't control myself - even when I was at the till and I realised I'd already spent 6000yen and my basket was still half full, I just let the woman keep on scanning! Doh!
Only 2 more weeks of unemployment left! I have to say that it's gonna be good to get back to work...even though when I start I'm gonna miss the days of being at home in the afternoon! Especially with the off key hours that I'm gonna be working. It's not just getting back to work - it's the thought of actually earning money again! I need to get on this saving thing hardcore. And I think with everyone being away for the Xmas period, that shouldn't actually be too hard...until the January sales come around and I go and blow everything anyway! But a new work wardrobe is a must!
Hehe!
xx
I was up so late skyping last night, that when my alarm went off this morning, I was absolutely exhausted!
I didn't even make it to the gym because I fell asleep again and by the time I woke up, my class had already started. But I felt really bad, so I worked out at home today.
And then I messed around on the Wii all morning! I had stuff to do but I just couldn't be arsed. Which has left me rushing around this evening trying to get stuff done!
Seriously though, tomorrow I am getting my arse in gear! I gotta go to the Immigration Office and that is a serious trek! Argh! God, I miss my car!
But really looking forward to the weekend again!
xx
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When I read this, it reminded me of a song by Rihanna called "Question Existing". In it, she talks about how she doesn't know who her real friends are, and can't tell if people want to know her for who she is, or for who she REALLY is.
Don't front. Be who you are. At the end of the day, you can't be liked by everybody - there will always be people who hate you. You just have to learn to not care..or at least turn the other cheek. You can't change who you are just to be liked, because even then, the people that you are trying to impress still won't appreciate you!
xx
I really enjoyed this weekend!
I got to hang out with Kyushu peeps, catch up, drink, dance and have a great time!!
It's always nice when you see people that you haven't seen for a while. I love catching up and seeing what people have been up to and hearing their news.
You all know that I'm not really into Halloween, but this weekend I made the "effort" and went out dressed as a schoolgirl. Not original, I know, but I really didn't wanna spend any money on an outfit! Hehe!
It was also cool checking out this thing they had going on at Tokyo Tower to promote New Zealand for the rugby world cup 2011. If ever there was a promotional video that made me want to go to another country, this was it! I totally wanna go to NZ now and it made me even sadder because it was my plan to go this year and I can't. Feel worse for my friend though - I'm sure that video made him homesick as hell! And to be honest, I'm not in the least bit surprised!
Loved this weekend. Loved it.
xx
I was upstairs making pancakes and switched on BBC World News.
What was on? A report on tourism in the French Polynesia!!
I was just watching with serious longing at the gorgeousness of these islands. And I know it's horrendously expensive, but let me tell you - this is a once in a lifetime opportunity to go somewhere like that. I know that if I don't go now, I never will - it will become one of those fantasy holidays. But I am going to make fantasy reality! It's worth it to spend the money on what will be one of the most tropical holidays of my life - people are always saying that they would never spend money like that just to go on holiday but you know what? Paradise costs. And it will be the experience of a lifetime!
Even if it means putting my social life on hold to save the money - hell, I'm gonna do it!
Make it happen!!
xx
Itchy feet are striking again.
You know me - I move every two years. And I've been in Japan longer than that.
It must be looking at everyone's photos or something, but I have this overwhelming desire to just up sticks and go back to South America. Or maybe go back and live in Madrid for a while. Or continue with my original plan of going to live in Hong Kong and then New York. Seeing pictures of Buenos Airies and Spain is just bringing back so many great memories for me and I just wanna go back!!
I seem to have this real problem of staying in the same place. Even in London, I moved house every year, 18months. I like the change - even though moving is completely stressful and a pain in the arse.
I just love living abroad. But I came to Japan for a reason and I really can't abandon that and just leave. Otherwise it would mean that the last two years would have been a complete waste of time. Nah - I have to stick with it. No matter how strong the urges are to leave. It's not that I want to leave permanently - just for a while and then come back. After all, I've already told you that Tokyo is now my number one favourite city in the world - overtaking Hong Kong, Madrid, London and Buenos Airies. Not to mention the visa havoc I would face if I was to leave and then try and come back.
I just wanna go somewhere!! I think the fact that I don't get my annual Christmas break has really got to me. It sounds incredibly spolit though! I mean, some people never get to go anywhere! But since being here I have been abroad so much and there is still so much travelling that I need to do! Singapore, Malaysia, Laos and Northern Vietnam and then I would've finished SE Asia. I'll work more of the mainland when I move to HK I think. But at some point I do need to get in the South Pacific Islands. Horrendously expensive but I swear I'm gonna make that happen next year!
Just need to save the money!! I've been pretty good actually! I haven't been shopping once - although that will change when I get paid in January and the sales are on! But that's for business wear so is completely acceptable!! LOL! Passing up on a few nights out now is definitely worth it because next year will definitely be an expensive one if I manage to get all these trips in! Ideally, it would be a weekend in Seoul, Golden Week in Tahiti or Bora Bora, the summer would be a weekend trip back to Kyushu and a trip to the States and then Xmas would either be back in London or Australia. That's the plan! And that is a lot of money!
But I can dream! And dream I most certainly do!!!
xx
You know how sometimes you randomly listen to music that you haven't heard for ages?
That's what I did today and ended up listening to Christina Aguilera's "Hurt".
What a great song this is! I'd forgotten how much I absolutely love it! Even if it does make me feel a bit teary eyed!
Think I'll download her greatest hits album now!
xx
Inspiration from Will Rogers today!
"If you want to be successful, it's just this simple. Know what you're doing. Love what you're doing. And believe in what you're doing".
Like it?
xx
I so badly wanna go on holiday.
I hate not having a break to look forward to! This time last year I was planning my holiday to Thailand and Cambodia! And this year I'm stuck in Japan. Booo!!!
So I've decided to start looking into my holidays next year instead! I mean, why not? It's not like I don't have the time on my hands and seeing as I'm sick, I have more time than ever!
I'm thinking the French Polynesia for Golden Week - either Taihiti or Bora Bora. And then I wanna do a trip to the states next summer, after I do a quick trip back to Kyushu.
I need to find some time in there to do Laos and finish off Vietnam and get to Malaysia and Singapore. If Bora Bora or Tahiti become too expensive, then Golden Week would be perfect for Malaysia.
Yay! I love planning holidays! Just a shame that I'm gonna have to wait so long before I even get to go anywhere!
xx
Written by an unknown author, this one really got to me.
"I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be".
When you're younger, you have these goals in your head that you're gonna be in a certain place by a certain time.
And damn, I am nowhere near where I wanted to be at this age. Admittedly, I'm not doing too bad but still nowhere near.
And that makes me a bit sad to be honest! Plus I want to use this as the kick up the arse I need to work harder to get closer to being where and who I want to be.
xx
Man, I really need to learn to turn the other cheek sometimes!
No matter how childish someone is being, how low they're stooping - I just need to walk away and leave them to play on their own.
I was speaking to my friend last night and he made me realise that I just need to walk away.
And that's exactly what I'm gonna do!
What would I do without you, eh?
xx
What has happened to Jenny?
She has turned so bad! And what is going on with her bright white hair and horrendous lipstick!? I like her more in last season when she was actually styling. Now she just looks a complete mess.
Chuck on the other hand....that suit.....
Mmmmmmmm.
LOL!
xx
This one is by Byrd Baggett.
"Look at life throught the windshield, not the rear-view mirror".
It's similar to something I quoted before about looking forward and not back. To be able to move forward in life you need to stop looking back.
Don't dwell. Move on.
LOL - funny that I choose this, yet in my last entry I was talking about my ex. But it's not the same - I'm not dwelling - I'm reminisicing. And we all reminisce about things sometimes - especially when they make us smile.
xx
I spent a lot of time yesterday clearing out stuff and I came across loads of photos of me on holiday with my ex.
Just to make it clear, when I say my ex, I'm talking about the guy that broke my heart. Before I was calling him my ex-ex but I realised that what was going on recently with someone else wasn't a relationship so it doesn't count. That was just....nothing.
So yah, the ex is the guy that took me 7 months to get over. Anyway, when I was looking at those pictures, I was smiling. Because despite the way that things ended up, we were really good friends and had so much fun together. I'm not angry anymore - it doesn't mean that I would ever give him another chance - it just means that I'm over it. He's not the only guy that I've had a messy ending with, but he's the only one that I look back on without cringing or wondering what the hell I was thinking and that kind of stuff. He's the only guy that I never got sick of - that I still was excited about seeing even after spending every single day together. And weirdest of all - he's the only guy that even after splitting up, I never got rid of anything that reminded me of him. Au contraire - I actually kept everything, even though at the time it was incredibly painful. With everyone else, I get rid of the photos and anything else that they may have given me coz I cringe when I think of them.
Funny how I feel the best about the guy that hurt me the most! That makes absolutely no sense! But I guess when you let your guard down and let someone actually get to know you, you have an amazing time. And you know what they say - it's better to have love and lost, then to never have loved at all! So true. Those are fabulous memories that I have.
And I have a confession to make! I actually saw him a few weeks back. I was a bit nervous but then I saw he was as well - you have to remember that I havent seen him for the best part of a year. The most remarkable thing about it was that I had no romantic feelings towards him whatsoever! Seriously! But it felt amazing - it was like catching up with a really old friend. Everything was ridiculously comfortable and I realised how much I miss being around him just because we get on so, so well and he's absolutely hilarious. The whole thing was left very casually - I'll see ya when I see ya kinda thing. He moves around a lot for work so it's rare for him to be in the same spot for a long time. But that all suits me fine. I was just so relieved to feel good - to not feel anger or hate or anything. To be over what happened. I was just so happy to see him because I'd forgotten all the good things and now that I've been reminded of them, I look back with better memories!
That's just reminded me that I haven't given my quote of the day for a couple of days!!! I'm gonna go find one now.
xx
I was talking to my friend today and we came to a conclusion.
We have had enough of being single!!!
I am so ready for a decent guy! And to be wined and dined and pampered.
Wouldn't that be nice?
*sigh*
Another friend who left Japan this year has gone back to Buenos Airies.
So many people have decided to go back to South America. I'm actually impressed how many people I've met over here who have actually spent an extended amount of time there, including myself, and it's nice to see that so many people still have a special connection with the continent.
I was talking to her about why she went back, and she said that working here in Japan for two years was like working herself to an early grave. Being back in South America is allowing her to actually LIVE life again, rather than plodding through day by day over here just to save money. And God knows there are so many people here doing that. Not the reason to stay here guys!
At some point I definitely want to go back to South America - especially Brazil (which will ALWAYS be a special place for me) and Argentina. It's an incredible continent. But while I am here in Asia, I wanna do what I need to do over here first. And then definitely includes a trip back to Indonesia!
I wanna be paid to travel. That would be my ideal job. Do you remember Jill Dando? I ALWAYS wanted her job on "Holiday".
Might start looking into that again!
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